I can't believe there's so many people who are FAKE. Its better being yourself wth, rather than living behind a lie.

Wishes for October

• Get Good Grades (hopefully pass english exams)
• Go to a haunted house for halloween
• Meet my primary school friends again
• All fights to be resolved and to never happen again
• GO SHOPPING @orchard, bugis etc hehe
• work and get $$
• maybe go MAMAs??
• ahhh spend less time on twitter
• OK THATS ALL

Can people just get a grip and move on with life already.
Its really getting out of hand.
How many conflicts do you want to have?
Why am I always feeling like the middle one?
Gosh seriously I really don't know why conflicts can cause arguments over a long time.
I mean even if i get mad at someone, I will just get along with that person afterwards.

And it's like I don't know any of my friends anymore.
'Taking sides' is taking more than often.
The so called clique is like split into groups.
Why the eff do you want to have arguements with your own close friends. Or whatever else I don't care.
I can feel there's a certain tension. But certainly you shouldn't be quick to blame another person for it.
I think because of the fights, I kinda got to know their real personality. But I really hate it when people say that they want to know the story blah blah blah but then they don't want to do anything about it as they don't want to get into trouble. Selfish much.

I swear I'm getting sick and tired of everything. I'm beginning to think being at home is better than being at school.. Maybe that's the reason I always go home early nowadays. Whenever I hear them talking about it, it just irks me and makes me want to be as far away from them. Its annoying to hear one talking about the other.

party one: "you don't know the full story".
party two: "do you think they know. should we tell them"
gosh its annoying. I have no one to tell this to so I'm blogging about it. Who reads my blog anyways.
either way, one person should have the common courtesy to say what the hell is happening. But if everyone's keeping quiet, I don't want to a give a damn or care about it. I'm just gonna play along and act dumb till somebody says something. But whatever it is, I'm still going to be good friends with both like duh. People make mistakes, it's common in life. Just freaking accept it and move on.

I broke down the first time round and I don't want it to happen again. I don't want to feel so weak and helpless. I just feel that its sad.. I might not know anything about the story this time round but who cares. Maybe it's better not knowing at all.

It hurts alot to see close friends not talking to one another.
Seriously I've have enough of it.
This year, how many fights have there been in the 'clique'.
wow and i'm always the one caught in between.
k so now two girls argue but other people butt in and its a freaking mess.
SO now the so called clique is basically divided into three WOW.
the group that supports one side, the other group that supports the other one and people who just want it to be over and done with.
Its not like the fight benefit anyone at all. Its just a stupid problem that escalated into a big mess.
I'm not blaming anyone seriously. I'm on nobody's side either.
What matters is resolving the problem. NOT who started it, who added to it or whatever.
What does it take to solve it is a simple apology from EVERYONE.
I mean I'm at fault too. I didn't think that it will come to this.
And its hurting everyone c'mon.
Do you know what its like sitting at two different tables.... It just sucks.
Me and two others are caught in between and we dont know what to do.
Its just upsetting....
PLS. JUST. STOP.          

ok enough talking about the guys. but i've got to say i feel really comfortable around CY and XJ keke~ they're just awesome LOLOL.

now its the GIRLS TURN.

for girls, i'll write their name straightaway lol. guys names top secret heheh.:B

FARAH!
ma babe, ma mommy!!:D
when i first came to secondary school, i thought no one was from my previous school.
But i was SO happy to see farah next to me in the school hall and in the same class!! Wow i thought she was the quiet type but ohmy was she super noisy and hyper and weird! I didnt really know her in primary school but now she's a super close friend. Plus we're the only malays in our class so we kinda stick together always. But it has been fun knowing her! Sitting beside her is awesome she's super easy to talk to. And I can tell her stuff that I wont really tell other ppl. P.S. I dont really tell anyone much about me. They'll just have to figure me out lol. But she's a great friend. She just a lil annoying sometimes when she think she is always right and then it leads to arguments hmmm. She's an awesome friend. She is always the life of the party HAHAH. love you farah!

\holidays been pretty busy and its going by so fasttt.

Hari raya celebrations was awesome<3 2 days of awesomeness with my sec school friends.


Its been a long time since I talked to him. Well I started a conversation with him today about something but somehow we talked for quite a long time. Lol I actually asked from a friend for his number as I kinda deleted his number lol oops. And I really have no intentention of keeping his number. Seeing his name appear in my contacts is something I wish not to see. Hmm k stop thinking bout that guy dude.

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WOW I just had a dream bout XJ recently and it was awesome!!!

All that I could remember of the dream was that he confessed and we went out together.

it felt like reality BUT it was only a dream kayyy!!

I should not fall for him lol. I'm just going to consider him as a best friend!

What are the odds of that happening anyways?
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Ahh now I rarely talk to CY as he's a busy guy. I guess when you become busy, u tend to lose some contact with friends. well ohwell.. HAHA. now, I think i'm becoming closer to XJ. which is weird. since I rarely talked to him in school. we were not even in the SAME class. in sec1, I used to see him alot at the bus stop. Then somehow i got a text message and it was from XJ. Hahah he's an awesome friend. Recently, I went back to my primary school on teachers' day. I was preeeety bumped that CY wasnt there but I was really excited that XJ was there!xD H was waiting for me and we saw all the guys playing at the bball court as usual~ see all my former classmates and suddenly out of the bushes I see him emerging out. He immediately shouted my name lol. haha sadly didnt call out H name. maybe he didnt see her. when I went in, I was all excited haha. I think mainly its because of him :D long time didnt manage to see him at the busstop lol. H and me played truth or dare. And i asked her of all the guys playing bball, who is the most handsome. and she said XJ! lol its funny. I think he is handsome too haha. Then came the chitchat session. He was previously from another class but he sat and talk to us awww niceguy lol. After that, me and H went to bubbletea shop and then I called XJ to see if he wanna join. but sadly he was already at home. haha he so cute say "i penat" and all the basic malay hahaha. I think CY and XJ means more than friends to me. But more as in best guyfriends<3 I want to talk to them and see them more often!!!!!!!
 
kk I think im done with all guys in my school.
I think the guys in my primary school are way better.
Maybe that's why I like hanging around them.
XJ and CY they're awesome guys

WOW kk long time i didnt blog heheh.xD
lots of things been on my mind
and i dont know who to talk to.TT
so i decided to blog about it then.
nobody reads my blog anyways these days~